Monday, October 30, 2006

Day 75: Needle schmeedle

Gave blood today - great excuse to eat chocolate biscuits :-)

Seriously, today was pretty busy, so I didn't get much of a chance at work to nibble and crave.. after dinner was another story. Sweets are sitting in the cupboard calling my name... and I'm NOT HUNGRY!!! why do they tempt me?

RSI playing up today, so I will sign out for now...

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Day 73, 74: 6km

Can't remember too much of yesterday. My sister was visiting so didn't get much chance to get on the computer.

This morning I did a 6km sloooooowwww run. Have been nibbling on sugary stuff all day. My stomach feels uncomfortably full... silly silly.

Physically very tired today, and will probably sleep well tonight.

Tomorrow's goal - eat when hungry - think about what powers my body.

Day 73, 74: 6km

Can't remember too much of yesterday. My sister was visiting so didn't get much chance to get on the computer.

This morning I did a 6km sloooooowwww run. Have been nibbling on sugary stuff all day. My stomach feels uncomfortably full... silly silly.

Physically very tired today, and will probably sleep well tonight.

Tomorrow's goal - eat when hungry - think about what powers my body.

Friday, October 27, 2006

Day 72: Got my timer on

I have my 15 minute timer on so I better be quick.

Felt like I listened to my hunger today, apart from late afternoon (after some work stress) and this evening (in front of TV again).

Went for a run this morning - felt good. Going to do some strength stuff next.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Day 71: Feel that rumble

Well, I aimed to feel hunger today before meals, and I did a pretty good job! I had a headache most of the day that got worse in the afternoon (often I reach for chocolate at that point, but I didn't need it).

Ended up having some chocolate after dinner and really enjoyed it!!

p.s. I spend way too much of my evening on my butt in front of the computer. I think I need to take Flylady's advice and spend it in 15 minute chunks, in between doing something constructive!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Day 70: That many days?

Has it been 70 days of logging this? I'm not sure what changes I have made in that time...


I guess at least I can show I have been consistent in logging my thoughts and my food diary. I need to think a bit more about my danger times and why I am eating when I'm not hungry.

Again tomorrow I will focus on hunger.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Day 69: Mouth hunger

Just ate and ate today - no regard for hunger... going to focus on letting myself be hungry tomorrow.

On a positive note I walked at lunchtime and went to a body pump class tonight.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Day 68: Rain rain go away

It is a public holiday here today, so no work (which is nice), but the weather is pretty wet and yuck. I managed to get out for a quick walk today (and ate two chocolate bars while I was out!) but no runs yet today. Hopefully it will ease off a bit later and I can go after the kids have their dinner.

The inlaws left this morning, and the kids had a sleep this afternoon, so I have had a bit of time to try to organise myself. Lots to do.

Feeling a bit blah - wonder if it is the weather, or related to some of the food I have eaten over the last few days.

(later)
Was very tempted to get chicken fried rice for dinnner tonight - couldn't be bothered cooking. But my body didn't really want it - it hasn't had much fruit or vegetables over the last few days. Instead I searched my recipes and came up with a quick and easy guacamole on toast dinner that was better for me.

Day 66, 67: No space

Had inlaws come to stay - great for the kids to see them, but meant that daughter was in our room both nights so no time on the computer. Eaten lots of junk without thought.

Friday, October 20, 2006

Day 65: Evening snackfest

My evenings are turning into junk food bingefests. Must take up painting or something to distract myself.

Definitely moving now in less than a month... lots to do

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Day 64: Will you still need me, will you still feed me

Not a bad day today - in a better mood. Didn't go for a run in the morning, but went for a walk up and around the Mount at lunchtime.

Didn't stuff myself full, but was nibbling constantly at work... don't often feel thunder.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Day 63: A bit of sunshine helps lift the mood

It is amazing how improved my mood is on a fine day. I did ok today for eating intuitively, with some minor lapses.

Tonight my hubby pulled out the chocolate, but I had a few pieces (well around 8) and then he put it away. That is a good thing!

Didn't eat much fruit today - must remember to eat it as when I do I enjoy it.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Day 62: Lack of enthusiasm

Due to some minor annoyances at work, and distraction of thinking about moving house I was very unmotivated today. I did go for a run this morning, but only did about 19 min with a couple of mins walking in the middle. My legs just felt like lead.

Have eaten beyond fullness tonight. Was eating unconsiously.

Hope stress of moving won't cause me to falter.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Day 61: Left a half finished chocolate bar!

Wow - today I left a half finished chocolate bar in my drawer at work, because I had eaten enough. This is very rare!

I did fall apart a bit in the evening, and didn't get my planned lunchtime walk in because of the weather, but I am focussing on the positivity of the day!

I read through this website last night (think it came from one of Jenn's links). I really relate to what Dave has to say in this site. I think my problem is less about yoyo dieting, and more about binge eating (I have only lost weight - more than a kg or two - a couple of times in my life, despite a resolve every morning that today is the day I will control myself).

I think that his idea of having a hobbie or something else to focus on in danger times is a great idea. I might go and get my paintbrush out again.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Day 59, 60: Ran race!

I did it!! Ran the whole 5km (with the exception of a planned short walk up a really steep hill at the very start). Was a bit demoralising since there wasn't many people doing it so I was running with hardly anyone else the whole way. It was a bit disorganised too (and running into a very strong wind at the end). Next time I must convince my family to come and cheer me along....

Pretty good eating-wise today (listening to my body) apart from a "kids-are-in-bed-must-be-time-for-my-afternoon-snack" session after lunch.

Friday, October 13, 2006

Day 58: I got it!

Well they have offered it (the job) to me and I said I would get back to them on Monday. Has been nearly 2 months of waiting so they can wait a couple more days.

Did well on my eating during the day, but usual eating problems in the evening, although I did turn down an offer of chocolate from hubby afterwards.

Very tired - off to sleep.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Day 57: Find out tomorrow

I find out tomorrow if I got the job. Bit nervous, but will be good to finally know. THis cold is still bugging me - seems worse tonight.

I had a breakthrough at work today (after eating a bag of sweets, but we won't go there...) I headed for the snackbox, but couldn't see anything that I really felt like, so I had some water and left - amazing!!

Now I just need to think like that in my danger times (after lunch and in the evening).

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Day 55. 56: The cold effects

I have a cold and a sore throat and feel like a misery. Yesterday my sore throat was so annoying, and the only thing that "seemed" to soothe it was eating. I just ate and ate. I had a bad sleep last night because my irritable throat just kept on irritating me!

This morning I was going to go for a run, but decided I'd had a crappy sleep so I wouldn't bother. Hubby said why don't you go out for a walk anyway, so I did. I ended up walking for 10 mins or so, then running for about 19 minutes!! I was so glad that I had done it, and my cold didn't feel too bad. It was a beautiful (chilly) morning and the tide was out so it was nice to run along the sand.

I didn't eat very intuitively today, and my excuse was my cold, but that is really just an excuse. I should have been eating lots of fruit and vitamin c, but instead I chose processed and fatty foods. I had a big lunch, and at dinner time wasn't hungry. I just felt like some muesli (I had felt like that for breakfast, but we had run out), so I had that. I thought about making a vege stir fry, but instead ate more junk.... at least I made my hubby hide the rest of the chocolate so I wouldn't eat it!!!

Monday, October 09, 2006

Day 54: Mondays... I prefer Sundays

Actually today wasn't too bad for a Monday, but I am getting a cold (thanks to darling daughter) and feeling a bit sorry for myself. Must have an early night tonight...

Today would have been a fine model for intuitive eating apart from the large bag of sweets that I bought and consumed after lunch.... silly silly.......

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Day 53: Run 2 days in a row!

Decided to go out for a run again today to increase my time a little, but since it was my morning up with the kids, I didn't get to go until around 9am, and my legs felt like lead. I ran for a couple of minutes then thought I'd just walk, but after walking for 5 mins or so I decided I needed to push myself a bit more so I ran. I ran for about 12 mins or so then walked a couple of minutes, then ran another 10 mins or so. So about 24 mins in total - but not in a row. The 5km race I have entered is next Sunday, so I guess I am going to have to run/walk it....

When I got back from my run, I did some stretches, strength stuff (for about 10 mins!!), and my daughter was trying to copy me. It was very cute...

Have sorted out the house (de-cluttered a bit) and some papers. My goal is to try to keep it like that for a week! I feel so much happier when I'm not living in a cluttered environment.....

As for eating today, my usual weekend habits kicked in again. Next weekend I'll have to save my run for that time of day!!! (As it turned out Mr 1 year old didn't really sleep, so I didn't have huge amounts of time to junk-frenzy). I have swapped mornings with hubby so that I can run on Tuesday, but that means I have to get up early tomorrow again.... :-(

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Day 52: Usual weekend habits

Still freezing here today, but fantastic sunshine... went for a run along the beach this morning. 19 minutes, felt like I could have kept going longer, but hubby wanted to go and pick up the car, so I needed to get back for the kids.

Had an awful sleep last night, daughter dearest woke several times (she has a cold, plus kicks her blankets off). At 4am I couldn't get back to sleep for nearly 2 hours. Luckily it was hubbys turn to get up. My turn tomorrow!

Hit the junk food again this afternoon , as soon as the kids are in bed. That seems to be my danger time. Perhaps I should go out walking or find some other way of occupying myself at that time...

Friday, October 06, 2006

Day 51: Friday again (hooray!)

I have been so busy this week at work, and was sure I was going to have to work this weekend, so it was great to be able to leave the office at 5.15 on Friday evening and think "I don't need to go back until Monday"! Hooray!!!

My gum saved me from eating without hunger again this afternoon - I just keep on frantically chew-chew-chewing until it looses its taste, and I start on the next piece. It feels a little like a crutch at the moment, and probably something I will have to wean myself off later. I did end up eating a cookie late morning, but I missed out on my friday work shout, so I felt like a little sweetness from the snackbox.

We should get the car back tomorrow (a week of being car-less has been a bit of a shock), along with the bill of around $3000!!! aarrgh! Nevermind. At least we don't have two cars to break down... :-)

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Day 50: Interview is over

I had my interview today, and I think it went ok. I have been stressing a bit about it, but now it is over I am happy - should know by the end of next week.

Didn't run this morning, as I was preparing for the interview. Went out tonight, but it was freezing and my legs felt like lead. I am much better in the mornings.

Went to buy a muffin at lunchtime, and they didn't have any nice ones left, so I ended up going and buying lollies and gum. It would have been a good idea to buy grapes or something to munch on.

Off to have a bath (after the dishes)

Day 50

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Day 49: Busy busy

Still busy at work. Met one deadline today, another one on Friday means that there is no rest for the wicked.... the toblerone late this afternoon was eaten for stress reasons.

I am finding the gum good - as it gives me something to do with my mouth. I just need to think about how much gum I should be eating... not too keen on the chemicals in it.

I have been thinking about my hunder/fullness levels, but it is yet to have too much impact on my choices - slow and steady....

Going to try to run with some of the others from work at lunchtime tomorrow - hope I'm not too slow. I have entered a 5km race on October 15th, so only have less than two weeks to go for training...

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Day 48: Tired

Feeling tired right now, didn't sleep well last night due to stress, full stomach, thunderstorms, and waking toddler. Managed to get myself up and out of bed in time to get in a quick 15 mins of running this morning - so proud that I did that, as at one stage I thought - why bother.

Eating has been fairly well on track today, although I haven't had much fruit or vege.

Watched Downsize Me again tonight - very inspirational (or motivating/scary!)

Monday, October 02, 2006

Day 47: Stressed and binge-fest

Yucky wet day here today. Stressed with work, got an acne breakout, and despite my good balanced lunch, I went out to get sugar in my lunchbreak (a whole bag of gummy sweets) as well as some gum.

I knew I was full after that and feeling yuck, and it was like my subconscious said - you feel yuck - maybe some more junk food will help.. so I ate more!! I could just feel it in my stomach (still can as I am still munching...

Ugh. Why do I do this to myself.....

p.s. weighed myself over the weekend (we don't have scales at home) and I am about the same weight that I was after having my last baby - haven't lost any of that preggy weight.... but I knew that really by the way that my clothes fit....

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Day 46: Both ends of the scale

Today I experienced what I had read about - the binge caused by letting myself get too hungry. I went for a run this morning (22 mins - yay!) and didn't really eat enough breakfast when I got home. We then went down to the beach, and by then I was getting really hungry.

When we got back I was nibbling while I made the kids lunch, since mum said she would babysit while we went out for lunch (yahoo!). By the time I got to the cafe I was pretty hungry and we ordered an entree (starter) to share, even though I new the main (entree) was going to be large. It was so yummy that I just ate and ate, even though I knew that I was beyond comfortably full.

We then walked back and stopped at the fruit shop on the way - I was tempted by the chocolate bars, and then ate that on top of being VERY full.... so much for listening to my body!

I am going to record my hunger scale in my food diary so that I can see if there is any pattern. Next time I run, I must allow myself a larger breakfast, or a snack mid-morning to keep me going.