Day 169: Babysteps

Small steps of progress today. I gave blood this morning, and had the afternoon off to take my daughter to kindy induction day.

Eating was ok - I thought about hunger and fullness a bit.

Day 168: Oops

Ok, so I didn't get off to a very good start of "blogging every day" - I had a pretty big eating evening yesterday... I felt like I was in a sugar coma!

Today has gone fairly well, at least until while I was cleaning out the pantry I found a bag of lollies and ate the lot!!

When I woke up, I didn't feel up to a run, so I grabbed my yoga mat and did some yoga poses before breakfast - that felt great and I will try to keep doing that.

I did IE at work today - not eating at my desk, eating the lunch I had brought in instead of getting sushi, no lollies. And I thought periodically about my hunger and how full I was. I even had a bit of a rumble going before lunch and dinner!

I guess my positive thought of the day is " the daytime went great!"

Day 166: Reading books, but not yet changing

Well it has been a while since I blogged... I had my trip away for work and it actually went quite well, and I didn't need to be as nervous as I was. I ate well when I was away (apart from getting through a six pack of chocolate hot cross buns! :-P)

Since I have been back I have been stuck in my old problem of evening eating (days have been mostly ok, with a few times when I have headed for the dreaded lunchtime lollies)...

The "Rules of Normal Eating" book that I have been reading is pretty heavy on beliefs and feelings, and I need to work my way through it and spend the time on it. The basic premise of the changes that need to be made are very similar to HUGS - thinking about hunger and satisfaction.... But it also talks about cravings. It also focussed not only on reformed dieters, but also overeaters - and I definitely fit more into the second category, as I have never had much success for long with diets.

I haven't started reading the IE book yet....

My main goals for the next week are to:
- blog every day
- keep in touch with Jenn my accountability partner
- keep reading and starting to apply what I have learned.

On a positive note, it was a stinking hot day so we headed to the beach yesterday. I let my inhibitions go and went in swimming with bearly a thought about what people must think of my thundery white thighs :-). It was a fantastic swim.

Day 152: Books arrived today

Woohoo! My books arrived today - just in the nick of time.

Have been thinking that my eating frenzy has probably been related to some work stress. I have to travel tomorrow for a couple of days and am in a bit of a stressful situation, so it is weighing on my mind.

Day 151: Struggling

I feel like I was doing ok, but have gone back into usual habits. I went to try on clothes yesterday and was basically disgusted with myself and how I look. I can't fit normal size clothes anymore...
Weather has been rubbish this week (maybe affecting my mood) hot and rainy most of the time. Haven't done any exercise apart from a walk yesterday and one length of the pool this morning (need to go swimming without kids).

Hope my IE books come soon.

Day 150: 150 days and where have I gone

I am a little demoralised today. I have been creating this blog for 150 days but I don't feel like I have gone anywhere....

Day 149: Near made 6 days

I was doing so well, and then I let myself down this evening....

Today I was craving sweets - I nearly went to buy some but I bought some cherries and grapes instead for that sweet hit (I ate quite a lot but at least I felt better than eating a bag of lollies!)

Then this evening hubby was busy so I had to deal with the kids etc, and they were crying because he wasn't around and because it was hot and sticky. I dealt with all that and the mess (stuff left from breakfast - yuck!) and then REALLY wanted sugary treats. I tried to have crackers and cheese to stave it off, but in the end I caved in and ate several sweet things. Now I feel yucky....

But I am still going to do the 7 day no sugar thing... as I feel I need to do it.

Day 148: Still sugar free, but tempting me!

I have made another day without sugar....nevermind all the other rubbish I have eaten. It has been interesting because I thought it would get easier over time but it hasn't... maybe I need to give it longer before it becomes natural not to crave it.

Day 147: 4th sugar free day

Oh I SOOO wanted sugar this evening. But I didn't eat it - just loads of non-sugar stuff. I am wondering if it was the nacho chips I had - I noticed afterwards that they had sugar in them.

Day 146: 3 days without sugar

Ok, the title should be 3 days almost without sugar, as it is still a small ingredient in some of the savoury things that I have been eating...

I am actually feeling great about the sugar thing. I had a brief wavering moment after lunch today when I wanted to go and buy lollies, but I didn't and it felt good.

Day 145: Another sugar free day

Well I survived another day sugar free!!

Day 144: Sugar free

A new year! I haven't started the new year with a diet, but I have been thinking about how I can make some progress in eating intuitively.

I finally ordered a couple of books from amazon the other day (they will take a few weeks to get here). I had been putting it off because of the cost, and because I already have the HUGS books, but I finally decided that I need a kick start.

Well, the big news of the day is that I have decided to go without sugar for the week (as of this morning)! (Well, not completely without sugar - as it is in EVERYTHING - unbelievable reading those labels on food). Anyway, so far so good, despite there being chocolate cake on offer this afternoon, and hubby offering me part of a kitkat this morning.... I resisted! :-)

I'm not sure why I decided to do the sugar thing. It seems to be a thing that takes me out of control - like I can't get enough.