Day 318 CD 12: Bike day

I biked to work and home again today, which is something that I hadn't done for a while.

Sugar free again today, despite temptations (brownies at work, icecream at home)....

I need to work on the junk food thing though, as I seem to have substituted cheese/crackers and chips for the sugar in my life.

Day 317 CD 11: Family reunited

I was reunited with my family today. It was nice to see their smiling faces again.

Hubby and I also got a major chore done tonight - tax returns (due on the 7th - talk about last minute!!). Glad that is over.... that took the whole evening so I wasn't distracted by the chips tonight. Hooray!

Exercise tomorrow.....

Day 316 CD 10: Delayed homecoming

I am a bit bummed that my family who were due home this afternoon, have been delayed until tomorrow morning after a bomb scare disrupted flights.

The first night they were away was exciting and peaceful, the second I started to miss them, and now I can't wait to see them!

I did ok today - still no sugar HOORAY! and made it for a run walk despite the constant rain today. I have been snacking more than I should, and it hasn't been for hunger - more like boredom.....

Anyway - tomorrow is a work day, so that will keep me distracted!

Day 315 CD 9: Tidy house

I spent the whole of yesterday cleaning up the house, and sorting out paper work. It was a good distraction, although because I was at home by myself I had a lot of cravings.

I nearly caved in several times including when I did the supermarket shopping (my inner demon saying "oh it doesn't matter if you cave in this once - you have done well most of the time"), but I didn't.

My eating hasn't exactly been healthy and balanced, but I am proud of myself for sticking with the no sugar thing.

Off to do some more cleaning before the messer-uppers get home....

Day 314 Change Day 8

I am on my own until Sunday - which feels very strange. The fam left this morning to the inlaws on a spur of the moment trip, and I am left behind to try to get all the things done that I wanted to around the house.

It feels very weird, and the old part of me wants to treat this as an eating fest! Which I have done a little, eating more than I should, and grabbing at stuff rather that sitting down for a balanced meal. However I have avoided sugar all day - hooray!

Anyway, I set myself 15 mins on the computer before more tidying, so I'd better be off.

Day 313 CD7 - A week done

Ok, so it has been a week of the new challenge. It is getting hard, I was SOOOO craving some sugar today.... but I resisted, distracted, and ate chips instead... not ideal, but I need to focus on my primary goal.

I ate a bit much chinese takeaways this evening. I liked the taste to much and was really hungry before dinner.

Day 312 Change Day 6

Is it only 6 days already? It feels like I have been doing this no sugar thing for an eternity!

Day 311 Change Day 5

Did ok today. Still being sugar free, although I was really hungry today for some reason (maybe this chilly weather??)

Day 310 Change Day 4

Well I didn't accidentally eat anything sugary today (hooray!). It was a bit of an effort, as there was a morning tea shout at work in which everything had sugar in it (including the vege chips!).

I'm getting great support from my hubby, work colleagues, and my online accountability partner, which has been a great support.

The weather is getting a bit nippy here. It is supposed to be 3 degrees overnight - brrrr! I usually find myself being slothful at this time of year, so the timing of this change is critical.

Day 309 Change Day 3

Big oops today - ate sugar without even realising it. Feel pretty dumb doing that on day 3!!!

Getting good support from home, and don't have a headache today (well didn't even before the brownie).

Managed to get my butt out the door for a walk too.

Onwards and upwards

Day 308 Change Day 2

OK, so I feel a bit crappier today. Have been a bit tired, headachy and grumpy. Have probably eaten a bit more than just when hungry. Have felt like I was roaming around looking for something i could eat this afternoon and this evening.

Hubby has been very supportive though, which is great. And there are no junk foods (sugar free) in the cupboard to tempt me!

Day 307 Change Day 1: Fresh as a daisy

It feels nice to have a fresh start, and I did well today. I don't even feel too yucky or headachy yet which is good.

Day 306: A new start

My "Change for Good" approach starts tomorrow

I am starting tomorrow June 22nd. I will be:
- committing to 30 days of sugar free as a kick start
- aiming to eat to hunger/fullness cues, and what my body needs/deserves
- keep my feelings/hunger tracker on my desk and make a note every time I think about eating
- aiming to be active for 20 mins or more 4 times per week
- praying, diverting, relaxing.

I am also going to track on my blog daily the following things:
- whether I have eaten in secret or sneaked food
- whether I have been sugar free
- how many fruit/veges I have had (I do this already, but want to get the numbers up!)
- how much junk food $ I used (I have $90 to start the month - and get to keep what is left)
- what exercise I have done
- how many times I ate when I wasn't hungry

Later I want to focus on things like portions and getting some of these things refined, but for now the above is my focus.

I have support from my hubby and my accountability partner, Jenn. I know that this will take ENERGY, EFFORT, and ATTENTION. I can do it!

Day 301: Been away a while

Haven't been blogging for a while, partly because I have "fallen off the wagon" and partly because I am in the planning phase for action (based on the "Changing for Good" book).

I have yet to set a date, but preparation is underway for my change... the book emphasises that is important not to just jump right in and start to try to change straight away. It says you need to review the good and bad things about changing to see where you are at.

Overeating does have some positivity in my life (as strange as it may seem to say that). It means I eat whatever I want. It numbs my feelings. It means I don't need to be worried about being seen as a "sex object" or get undue attention. Chocolate makes me feel good (for a while). And overeating is my habit, and the "easier option".

So I need to think about WHY I am going to change, and ensure that those reasons are more than good enough to counteract any positive thoughts about staying the same....

Anyway, it is late so I don't want to go into details now, but see later posts for my new approach and plan..... :-)

Day 292: Got my book yesterday

Sorry for not posting for a couple of days. I have been doing great on exercise, but not so good on the eating front.

Anyway I got my new book - Changing for Good - yesterday. Just read the first couple of chapters so far, but so far so good.

Day 289: Climb every mountain

I was climbing mountains today - literally and non-literally. My physical mountain was a walk my family on a beautiful holiday day. Something that we had been meaning to do since we moved here over a year ago.

My other mountain, my eating, didn't go too badly today. I ate reasonably intuitively. Felt a bit full after dinner. Slept away the afternoon which probably helped the afternoon-at-home-munchies!

Anyway, here is to a positive week.

Day 287: OK day

I had an OK day today - it could have been a lot worse!!!

I felt hunger a couple of times, and haven't gone all out crazy this evening.

Baby steps.

Preparing mentally for my 5km race tomorrow.

Day 286: Hamsters again

I'm being a hamster again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 284: Cold kicking in, eating taking hold

I told myself I wouldn't try to stuff this cold with food, but I am!!! I know it doesn't help and I would be better with honey and lemon drinks!!!!

Day 283: Great run at lunchtime

I made myself go for a decent run at lunchtime, and I did great!

Still work to do on eating when hungry, but making baby steps - avoided the icecream tonight!

Day 282: Sitting with full belly again

Haven't posted for a few days. Didn't do great over the weekend - no spirituality, and generally no consciousness...

I have ordered a book today that I saw on the A Weight Lifted site...

Day 279: Lots of exercise today

So the eating wasn't great today, but I got in a bit of exercise - riding to and from work, and walking at lunchtime.

This weekend I will work on feeling hunger again.

Day 278: The snack box and the evening munchies

These two things are my current downfall. The ever-present snack box at work, and the items that are on hand while I sit at the computer or watch tv in the evening.....

Day 277: Progress in the rain

It was a horrid day weather wise today, but not so bad on the "intuitive eating" front. I did "graze" a bit at work, but avoided the snack box (getting very close on occasions!). I also forced myself out for a run at lunchtime, just made it a short one, but glad I got out there.

Gonna do some weights in front of the tv soon.

Day 276: Headaches aren't solved by eating!

Why is it that when I feel a bit off colour, I reach for food - I KNOW that it doesn't help!!

Day 275

Ok, so I figured out why I was hungry and grumpy!!

Day 274 - Hamster wheel

I sit here with a full stomach after eating way beyond "satisfied". When will I learn.

I have been on autopilot the last few days.

Day 270: Forgetting the spirit

I am forgetting my trust in the spirit during the day... I take time to think about it in the evening after blogging, and reassure myself that I will focus hard the next day, but the next day I slip into old habits.

Today also wasn't helped by an awful night's sleep last night...

Day 270: Progress not perfection

Today I had some progress, and some areas that weren't so focussed, but overall it went well.

Day 269: Alone in an office...and eating

So today my office mate wasn't there, and I turned it into an excuse for an eating binge. I ate lots of crap.

The positive side of the day is that at lunchtime I went to walk to the shops to get more sweets to eat in my office, but part way there I turned around and said "what am I doing - I don't need to do that" and I went back to my office and had a mint instead.

That was a small ray of sunshine in a cloudy day.

Day 268: Another bad nights sleep

I had another awful night's sleep last night. My son kept us awake.

I hate this half awake feeling, and I was silly and tried to medicate it with food.... it doesn't help. All I need is an early night.

Day 264: Progress not perfection

I am seeking progress, not perfection, and today I got that. I managed to avoid the snack box at work, despite nearly heading for it several times. I had a junky dinner, but I didn't eat beyond satisfied, so that is progress.

I even managed to haul my butt out the door at lunchtime for a run, despite being SO TIRED today after an awful night's sleep... Hopefully it will be a better one tonight.

Day 263: Slightly better but still work to do

I felt I did a little better today, but I still need to listen to my heart. I went to get lollies at lunchtime today. I wasn't hungry, I was even thinking that as I walked to buy the sweets!

Keep trying.

Day 262: Hamster wheel is back

What has happened - I was doing so well at focussing and it has all gone out the window. I need help.

Day 260: No comment

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Day 259: Wake up

Doing lazy silly things today.... need to wake up.

Day 258: Going so well then....

Old habits die hard. I listened to my hunger right up until the end of work when I was dealing with something annoying, and I attacked a chocolate bar. Then this evening I have munched out on some snacky junk....

At least I did some great exercise today - although it was hard work.

Day 257: Back and forward

I gave in to temptation from the snack box this morning, but since then have been listening to my hunger.

Day 256: Improved day

My day was an improvement on yesterday - I did well at work eating when hungry and eating what my body needed.

We got thai takeout tonight and it was so yummy that I had a second serving that I didn't really need. Then just now when I was working on the computer I saw hubby eating icecream and decided that I wanted some too - even though I was still quite full. Need to work on that...

Day 255: Eat-fest

I had a crazy day today. It was a horrible wet day, and a Monday (yuck). I got a letter at work with some news about my pay increase (which was probably better than expected - although I didn't expect much). That just kicked off a big eating fest!

I got a giant cookie from the snack bix, ate a big lunch, then bought sweets, and have munched my way through this evening with no thought or consciousness!!

I feel awful now, so I am going to take this as a little reminder of what my body and my spirit really needs....

Day 254: Great run this morning, chocolate biscuit chaos this afternoon

I went for a run this morning and found another road that cuts through which meant that I could do a little over 1.5x my normal route. I did it and I felt great. I will have to do that route again. It was 25 mins too so quite a good time for a daily run.

I am keeping up my spiritual focus.

Day 253: Grey day

It was a wet and rainy day here today until early afternoon - that certainly affects my mood. I did ok today, but need to keep up my positive thoughts.

Day 252: A few drinks and it all turns to custard

I had drinks after work tonight and have since spent the evening munching away...

Day 251: Running like the wind

I went for a run at lunchtime today (well - "jog" is probably a better word) and it felt great! Unfortunately I didn't start my timer of my watch properly but it must have been around 30 mins non-stop and it felt great!

My eating today at work was pretty focussed - I nearly bought a chocolate bar - but there weren't any flavours that I liked, so I walked away - that is progress!

I munched out a bit this evening, I will refocus and reflect tonight.

Day 250: Tired but an Ok day

I was very tired today after an awful night with sick kid. Normally this would cause me to completely stuff my face with junk in an attempt to wake up, and although I did eat when I wasn't hungry a couple of times, I didn't go "all out" - so that is progress!

Day 249: A walk in the sunshine

A friend convinced me to go bush walking today. We got organised a bit late so we only ended up doing a casual walk around a park, but it was nice to get out in the fresh air.

My eating has been good today in general. I overate a bit at dinner time, and have nibbled this evening despite being full, but all in all it has been a good day. So many positive days in a row - and it is that TOTM!

Day 248: Continued focus

My focus has continued for another day, despite stress at work (performance review) and an awful sleep last night. I overate slightly this evening, but no secret eating and I don't feel stuffed full.

That is awesome!!!

Day 247: Another positive day

I have had another positive day today. My eating has been natural, and although my food choices weren't such that I could eat them every day, I ate what I wanted and stopped when I was full.

I sit at the computer now without munching on endless empty "treats".

Day 246: Spiritual guidance

Got some spiritual guidance today and in a positive frame of mind.

Day 245: Dastardly lollies again

I bought lollies at lunchtime today. I don't know why!!!!

My focus for tomorrow is on whole foods.

Day 244: Focus

I have decided I need to focus on a particular thing each day. So I am going to buy a diary and plan out my daily focus ideas.

Day 243: Test results

I got my test results back today (I had a nagging concern about diabetes, so I got a test done) it was all clear which is great. However I guess a small part of me thought that if I DID have diabetes then that would be a big butt-kicking reason to make major changes in my diet...

Day 241: Some progress

I have decided to take a little more of a spiritual approach to this, and so far I have made some progress.

This morning at work I got some money together to go and get something from the snack box. I wasn't hungry. Just as I was about to get up I thought - no I'm not hungry and went through my spiritual thought instead. It worked.

This evening has been ok too, although I have eaten junk food I sat at the table and I haven't gone overboard. I ate a small amount of dark chocolate (its good for you!!! :-}) and some banana with chocolate icecream.

Yay for small steps forward.

Day 240: 5km jog then eat chocolate all day

The title says it all...

Day 238: Places to eat

I have been thinking about the times that I overeat, and there are common places:

• in front of the computer in the evening
• in front of the computer at work
• cleaning up at home in the evening
• watching TV.

So I am going to attempt to just eat when I am sitting at the table - and thinking about what I am doing.

Tonight I did ok with that. I consciously sat at the table when I grabbed my two choccie biscuits when I was cleaning up. Hubby gave me a creme egg while I was sitting at the computer, so i ate it there.. and then I got some chips while the tv was on.... But on a positive note I caught up on my filing that has been bugging me for a while - a good use of TV time!

Tomorrow's goal is to sit and eat consciously.

Day 236: Always after dinner

After dinner is always my downfall... while on this computer usually!!!! Or watching TV.

Day 235: Sugar frenzy

Lots of rubbish food today.

I need to roll my rock....

Day 233: Easter Sunday means CHOCOLATE!

OK - so having all these chocolate easter eggs around is a little too much temptation for me, however I haven't been tooooo out of control.

In-laws have gone back home today. It was nice to see them, but it will be nice just to have a day to ourselves to potter around tomorrow before going back to work.

Day 231: In laws here

My in-laws are staying with us. This is nice for us and the kids, and it means that hubby and I get a little bit of a break from constant preschool chatter.

Easter eggs in the cupboard are calling me but I am trying to hold out till sunday.

Day 229

I have been working longer hours lately, but tonight I made myself leave early. It was nice to get home a bit earlier to see the kids.

I have been munching out this evening, but now that I have done my computer stuff I am going to have a relaxing evening.

Day 228: Too busy to eat properly?

Why when I get busy do my eating habits fall by the wayside?

I went for a run at lunchtime today, but my legs felt like lead....

Day 227: Birthday girl

It is my birthday today - what an excuse to eat!

Day 226: Did da duathlon!

I made it!!! The duathlon was today, and despite hardly doing any training in the last week or so (storms and awful weather here this week - although it was fine today) I made it. It was a 3.5km run/walk (I jogged slowly), a 10km cycle (found this fine since I ride to work - although there were lots of hills), and 1.5 km run/walk (my aim was to jog but my legs were like jelly and the grass was awful to run on - ended up jogging the last half).

It is my birthday tomorrow, so we went out to lunch today to celebrate, which was really nice. My son decided he liked my lunch better than his, so we ended up sharing.

I have just entered another 5km run in 2 weeks time, so will need to keep (start!!) the training. Now it is cooling down I hope to go out some lunchtimes while I am at work.

Next step is to get control of my endless eating - let's see how that goes...

Day 224: Soon to be another year older

It is my birthday on Monday, and around this time of year I always seem to think about what I am doing with my life, and in particular my food issues.

I am actually starting to get really concerned about stuff like diabetes and heart disease. My BMI is around 28-29 - much higher and I will be in the obese category!!!!

I want to be healthy for me and for my family.

Day 222: Not so on-to-it today

Old habits again....

Day 221: Blogging again

Did ok today - progress at least....

Day No Idea

So I have been a bit slack with blogging (again) lately. No idea even what day I am up to now....

Just been reading some stuff on the web on binge eating - interesting.... Questions to ask (and my answers) are:
I eat when I am not hungry. YES
I eat until I feel extremely uncomfortable, not just full. YES
I eat a lot—and often. YES
I snack and nibble all day long. YES
I feel out of control and can't stop eating. YES
I eat very fast. YES
I prefer to eat alone. YES
I keep my eating habits a secret from family and friends. YES
I always seem to be dieting—and breaking my diet. KIND OF
My weight goes up and down by more than a few pounds. KIND OF
I feel disgusted, depressed, and guilty after I eat a lot. YES

Pretty telling really....

Also I:
- Hide food wrappers so that people won't know what i have eaten
- Eat normally in front of people, then sneak out and eat afterwards
- Eat treats that have been given to my kids
- Know what food is good for me and my body, and what should be eaten occasionally, but eat junk as often as I can...........

Day 207: Small progress

Felt like I made some small steps of progress today.... While at work I wrote down the time every time I thought about eating (a lot!!!), what my hunger rating was, and then I wrote what I did. Most of the time I did some deep breaths. I did have two snacks (including chocolate), but I felt like it was great progress considering some of the days I have had lately. This evening hasn't been too bad either (although I have eaten through most of the temptation on previous days!)

Good baby steps. Keep it up! :-)

Day 206: Stuffed again

Stuffed myself so full tonight - had eaten a lot then hubby bought a burger and chips home and I ate even more... stressed about work/home situation...

Day 203: Fatty food frenzy

Eating eating eating... all day long....

Day 202

Was annoyed yesterday becuase blogspot wasn't working again so I couldn't blog my stuff. I actually had a reasonably good day yessterday. I rode into work on my bike, and avoided all except one sweet all day (I ended upeating a bag of vege crisps when I found my orange was mouldy!!).

I was tempted lots of times for chocolate. I even went to the snack boxto buy one, then someone came in and I thought I don't really want it,so I didn't get it!!! I even managed to get out for a small run at lunchtime and rode home. Then after dinner I was craving sweet things. I had some crisps again,and a couple of biscuits but I didn't eat the icecream that wascalling to me several times during the evening. So overall I think yesterday could be counted as a babystep to success!

Today wasn't quite so positive. I did ride to and from work, but I didn't take much lunch/fruit with me and ended up at the snack box at 9.30am cos I was hungry.

At lunchtime I had sushi, and then went and bought some chocolate raisins when I was at the fruit shop to buy fruit. I ate all the chocolate raisins and none of the fruit!!!

Anyway. Tomorrow I am aiming for sugar free - I will eat anything else....

Day 200: 200 days on and no closer to change

I feel a bit deflated by the fact that I have been blogging for 200 days, but today was just as much of an eating frenzy as ever. If I were someone else listening to me I would want to slap me and say - "just get on with it! How hard can it be to think before you eat!"

Day 190: Nothing to say

Blah blah blah :-P

Day 189: More of the same

No progress to report. Ciao

Day 187: Like a hamster stuck in a wheel

I feel a bit like a hamster stuck in one of those revolving wheels.....

Day 186: OK for a weekend day

Today was ok for a weekend day. I was trying to avoid highly processed food, and I did an ok job until later this evening (as usual).

Tomorrow's aims are:
- walk or run
- snack-box free

Day 185: OK day

Did ok today. Had lots of cravings in afternoon when kids were asleep, and my usual post dinner time. Decided to go out for a run this evening (running after eating usually gives me stitch), and since it had been so long since I ate it wasn't too bad (stomach-wise - lack of fitness and carrying lots of extra weight is a whole 'nother story!

Day 184: OK day

OK day today. Listened to my hypnosis recording again last night.

Day 183: No lunch not hungry

Had a kightbulb moment today - and didn't eat any lunch because I'd had a large muffin at morning tea, and I just wasn't hungry!!

Hooray!

Day 182: Headache

I have a headache this evening. It stopped me riding home, and now I am munching on Valentine's chocolates to see if it will help.... it isn't.

Day 181: Some progress

Well I feel like I had a little more progress than yesterday's junk fest. I listened to my hypnosis recording last night before I went to sleep and I felt a lot calmer today. I took a good lunch to work, and did ok with eating there.

I am struggling a little this evening again, but am off to do a quick 15 min flylady de clutter, and then will do some painting to distract myself.

Day 180: Junk food frenzy

I had my office to myself for the day, had a sore (OOS related) wrist, was stressed about work, and so I had a junkfood frenzy. I feel yuck...

Must meditate on this tonight.

Day 177: Should I bother?

After blogging for 177 days I feel I am no further on. Is it worth it?

Day 176: Day OK, Evening Away

My evenings just turn to custard! (or should that be chocolate!)

Day 174: Out of the house and exercising with family

It was an inspiring crisp sunny morning this morning, so we headed out to Te Puna Quarry Park for a walk. My 4 yo did well walking most of the way herself, and hubby and I got extra exercise carrying the 13kg 18 month old!!

Did ok for eating today, right up until my usual weak time of the evening... Tomorrow night I am going to work on one of my projects instead of browsing at the computer (although Lost is on tomorrow so that will be an hour of TV time, but maybe I can do something else while I am watching).

Day 173: So much for my goals

I did crap at my goals today - I didn't run in the morning because it was pouring with rain. I ate sugar all day (3 trips to the snack box at work!) and had my usual piggy evening....

How do I snap out of it?

Day 172: Lazy day

We had a lazy day here today as it was yucky and wet - I had lots of mini naps and now I am wide awake at 11.30pm!!!

Goals for tomorrow: feel hunger and choose fruit over sugar

Day 171: Not much fruit today!

Oh dear - looking at my diary I see I had haredly any fruit today....

I need to take some time to think about what I am reading in the rules of normal eating book

Day 169: Babysteps

Small steps of progress today. I gave blood this morning, and had the afternoon off to take my daughter to kindy induction day.

Eating was ok - I thought about hunger and fullness a bit.

Day 168: Oops

Ok, so I didn't get off to a very good start of "blogging every day" - I had a pretty big eating evening yesterday... I felt like I was in a sugar coma!

Today has gone fairly well, at least until while I was cleaning out the pantry I found a bag of lollies and ate the lot!!

When I woke up, I didn't feel up to a run, so I grabbed my yoga mat and did some yoga poses before breakfast - that felt great and I will try to keep doing that.

I did IE at work today - not eating at my desk, eating the lunch I had brought in instead of getting sushi, no lollies. And I thought periodically about my hunger and how full I was. I even had a bit of a rumble going before lunch and dinner!

I guess my positive thought of the day is " the daytime went great!"

Day 166: Reading books, but not yet changing

Well it has been a while since I blogged... I had my trip away for work and it actually went quite well, and I didn't need to be as nervous as I was. I ate well when I was away (apart from getting through a six pack of chocolate hot cross buns! :-P)

Since I have been back I have been stuck in my old problem of evening eating (days have been mostly ok, with a few times when I have headed for the dreaded lunchtime lollies)...

The "Rules of Normal Eating" book that I have been reading is pretty heavy on beliefs and feelings, and I need to work my way through it and spend the time on it. The basic premise of the changes that need to be made are very similar to HUGS - thinking about hunger and satisfaction.... But it also talks about cravings. It also focussed not only on reformed dieters, but also overeaters - and I definitely fit more into the second category, as I have never had much success for long with diets.

I haven't started reading the IE book yet....

My main goals for the next week are to:
- blog every day
- keep in touch with Jenn my accountability partner
- keep reading and starting to apply what I have learned.

On a positive note, it was a stinking hot day so we headed to the beach yesterday. I let my inhibitions go and went in swimming with bearly a thought about what people must think of my thundery white thighs :-). It was a fantastic swim.

Day 152: Books arrived today

Woohoo! My books arrived today - just in the nick of time.

Have been thinking that my eating frenzy has probably been related to some work stress. I have to travel tomorrow for a couple of days and am in a bit of a stressful situation, so it is weighing on my mind.

Day 151: Struggling

I feel like I was doing ok, but have gone back into usual habits. I went to try on clothes yesterday and was basically disgusted with myself and how I look. I can't fit normal size clothes anymore...
Weather has been rubbish this week (maybe affecting my mood) hot and rainy most of the time. Haven't done any exercise apart from a walk yesterday and one length of the pool this morning (need to go swimming without kids).

Hope my IE books come soon.

Day 150: 150 days and where have I gone

I am a little demoralised today. I have been creating this blog for 150 days but I don't feel like I have gone anywhere....

Day 149: Near made 6 days

I was doing so well, and then I let myself down this evening....

Today I was craving sweets - I nearly went to buy some but I bought some cherries and grapes instead for that sweet hit (I ate quite a lot but at least I felt better than eating a bag of lollies!)

Then this evening hubby was busy so I had to deal with the kids etc, and they were crying because he wasn't around and because it was hot and sticky. I dealt with all that and the mess (stuff left from breakfast - yuck!) and then REALLY wanted sugary treats. I tried to have crackers and cheese to stave it off, but in the end I caved in and ate several sweet things. Now I feel yucky....

But I am still going to do the 7 day no sugar thing... as I feel I need to do it.

Day 148: Still sugar free, but tempting me!

I have made another day without sugar....nevermind all the other rubbish I have eaten. It has been interesting because I thought it would get easier over time but it hasn't... maybe I need to give it longer before it becomes natural not to crave it.

Day 147: 4th sugar free day

Oh I SOOO wanted sugar this evening. But I didn't eat it - just loads of non-sugar stuff. I am wondering if it was the nacho chips I had - I noticed afterwards that they had sugar in them.

Day 146: 3 days without sugar

Ok, the title should be 3 days almost without sugar, as it is still a small ingredient in some of the savoury things that I have been eating...

I am actually feeling great about the sugar thing. I had a brief wavering moment after lunch today when I wanted to go and buy lollies, but I didn't and it felt good.

Day 145: Another sugar free day

Well I survived another day sugar free!!

Day 144: Sugar free

A new year! I haven't started the new year with a diet, but I have been thinking about how I can make some progress in eating intuitively.

I finally ordered a couple of books from amazon the other day (they will take a few weeks to get here). I had been putting it off because of the cost, and because I already have the HUGS books, but I finally decided that I need a kick start.

Well, the big news of the day is that I have decided to go without sugar for the week (as of this morning)! (Well, not completely without sugar - as it is in EVERYTHING - unbelievable reading those labels on food). Anyway, so far so good, despite there being chocolate cake on offer this afternoon, and hubby offering me part of a kitkat this morning.... I resisted! :-)

I'm not sure why I decided to do the sugar thing. It seems to be a thing that takes me out of control - like I can't get enough.